I love Christmas. I do. But I also hate it.
I love change. I do. But I also hate it.
My life has changed sooo much since I was my kids age. I'm sure this is what happens with everyone, but for me, I feel like it just keeps getting more and more depressing. Grandparents have passed or gotten sick, family has moved away, we don't have those family gatherings that brought soooo much happiness to my life!
Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with my in laws and my parents, but I miss the crazy, crowded, family gatherings. Am I nuts?!
Probably.
It's not about the presents. Idc if I get anything. I just miss my family.
So yeah. This is my depressing Christmas post. Just needed to get it all out.
I'm hoping one day my holiday depression will just vanish and I can start new traditions and make new memories with my kids.
I've been trying extra hard this year. But that darkness has still found its way in...
If anyone actually reads this....ever...thanks for taking time to care. I hope you don't judge me.
Merry Christmas :)
