I'm struggling today.
I struggle everyday but today I'm struggling a lot.
Depression sucks.
I'm always so tired. Can't sleep at night.
I worry about everything. Even things that happened like days ago. They replay in my mind and I worry I didn't react right or I overreacted. And those who witnessed my reaction are totally judging me and think I'm a bad mom/friend/whatever....
I get these bursts of emotional breakdowns. And Ted & the kids are the ones who get the brunt of it. At some point I end it with crying hysterically & locking myself in the bedroom or sitting on the porch till I'm weak and just....done. Of course I then make my rounds to apologize to those I ended up yelling at...the kids are easy to forgive.....